David Leavitt: A Place I´ve Never Been (1990)
    " ... he was my best friend, after all, my constant companion at Sunday afternoon double bills at the Thalia, my ever-present source of consolation and conversation ... " (p. 45)

 
    " ... It threw me off at first, his not being there - I had no one to watch Jeopardy! with, or talk to on the phone late at night - but then, gradually, I got over it ... " (p. 45)

 
    " ... And I had started: I lost weight, I went shopping. I was at Bloomingdale´s one day, at my lunch hour when a very skinny black woman with a French accent asked me if I´d like to have a makeover ... " (p. 45)

 
    " ... Today, however, the place was in havoc - newspapers and old Entenmann´s cookie boxes spread over the floor, records piled on top of each other, ... " (p. 47)

 
    " ... "Look," I said. "I´m going to go out and buy sponges, Comet, Spic and Span, Fantastic, Windex. Everything. We´re going to clean this place up ... " (p. 47)

 
    " ... and told him he had tested positive. This was the secret fact he had to live with every day of his life, the secret fact that had brought him to Xanax and Halicon, Darvon and Valium - all crude efforts to cut the fear firing through his blood ... " (p. 47)

 
    " ... Strangers would call me, Germans, Italians, nervous-sounding young men who spoke bad English, who were staying at the YMCA, who were in New York for the first time and to whom he had given my number ... " (p. 48)

 
    " ... And so we ended up, as we had a thousand other nights, sitting at the window at the Empire Szechuan down the block from his apartment, eating cold noodles with sesame sauce ... " (p. 49)

 
    " ... Lizzie, exposed as an illegal subletter, was evicted. She lived now with her father in one half of a two-family house in Plainfield, New Jersey, because she couldn´t find another apartment she could afford ... " (p. 49)

 
    " ... eager to re-create the slumber parties of her childhood, dancing around in pink pajamas with feet. We were making s´mores over the gas stove ... and Beach Blanket Bingo was plaving on the VCR and none of us was having a good time ... " (p. 49/50)

 
    " ... Dorrie Friedman put away six of those s´mores with a tidyness worthy of Emily Post, I watched her dab her cheek with a napkin after each bite, and I understood: This was shame, but also, in some peculiar way, this was innocence. A state to envy ... " (p. 50)

 
    " ... There is a point in Lizzie´s parties when she invariably suggests we play Deprivation, a game that had been terribly popular among our crowd in college ... " (p. 50)

 
    " ... I remember the first time I ever played Deprivation, my sophomore year, I had been reading Blake´s Songs of Innocence and Songs of Experience. Everything in our lives seemed a question of innocence and experience back then, so this seemed appropriate ... " (p. 50)

 
    " ... Finally, reluctantly, Lizzie let us go, and relinquished from her grip, we got into Nathan´s car and headed onto the Garden State Parkway. "Never again," Nathan was saying ... " (p. 51)

 
    " ... and switched on the radio. Dionne Warwick and Elton John were singing "That´s What Friends Are For," and Nathan said, "You know, of course, that´s the song they wrote to raise money for AIDS. ... " (p. 51)

 
    " ... We were slipping into the Holland Tunnel, and by the time we got through to Manhattan I was ready to call it a night ... " (p. 51)

 
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